Watching

Sitting a Death Watch is never easy or pleasant. The best that can be hoped is that the person is made comfortable. It doesn't really matter if awake, they are not really there.

I am not sure which is worse for those gathered to sit the Death Watch. Semi-conscious; sort of awake, sort of not, or completely unconscious. Just how aware are they. Is it merely a reflex, or are they aware (at some level) & responding.

It can be consoling for those gathered to believe that their voice is heard, their touch is felt; their presence known by the person  lying there. At some level.

I doubt we will ever know for certain until we are in that position ourselves.

My watch was not as prolonged as i expected. For which i am thankful.

"I'm fine"

I have seen several postings in regard to world suicide prevention day. Something i have in my mind too much once again.


This is all i can say to people who ask how i am. Even if they actually had any concern as to the answer.




Why? Working on that.


At present i have failed the first 3 & am working on the fourth.
That can be read two way,  i'm working on both.
Not everyone will understand what i mean by that, but those who do are doubtless struggling with the same battle.
You have made it thru another night; you have made it thru another day: i am proud of you all.

In memory of all those who couldn't, let none condemn;. May you rest easy May peace sit lightly upon you & enfold you.